Part 4: Happiness

Part 4 is the last archetype I'm suppose to write about, and repeating the Nihilist and Happiness archetype periodically.

I don't think I've had moments of prolonged bliss in my life. The moments of bliss have often times associate them selfs with raw emotions that had to do with something or someone I was thinking about.

One of the first moments in that popped into my head recently just as I was thinking about this archetype and what I would write for it.
When I was on the plane flying home, after last year or maybe it was even after my first year of college. I dont really know exactly but I was on the plane, and I was listening to music on my iPod. My choice of beverage of the flight was coffee, with cream and suger, which is the way I always take it.
For some reason coffee reminded me of a crush that had circulated in my head for about a year or two, and up until recently I was basically crazy about this person. I thought about her while listening to Jeff Buckley's Grace album, and sipping my coffee coming back from a semester of hard work. My mind was at ease from having tried hard to complete the whole semester with a bang, and I was on my way to enjoy some time of relaxation, and seeing my friends again. For whatever time period this was for that moment on the plane when I was able to think about my crush while listening to that album, and drinking coffee and taking in all the aroma was the best. Although I dont really understand why I was so happy at the time period because things weren't as good as they are now. I no longer think about her, nor do I really want to associate myself with her. Its funny how life changes and change is always constant. My perception then is very much different then it is now, and I'm actually happy that I learned alot from those moments of sorrow, and happiness and the plethora of emotions that everyone goes through with relationship matters.
"Out of chaos comes order" was a quote by Nietzsche I think, but I'm not sure. Someone correct me if I'm wrong.
Cheers,
-Pete

Excersise part 1: Rat-racer

So I'm reading this new book that I just picked up titled Happier by Tal Ben-Shahar, Ph.D.

In the book he instructed me to write about different personallity aspects of my life and how those things have effected me.
First one on the list is Rat-racer so here it goes...

Being a rat-racer has been a quality of mine for a while. I guess school is like the ultimate rat race, to get to success and by gaining success being happy.
Basically when I'm in school my life is a big rat-race, and even by the way I walk it shows.
After reading this I have taken a little bit of a step backward and taking notice of how this is my characteristic.
I've been stress ever since I started school in the Fall of 2005 and its been nothing but a rat-race with not to much of a reward. I have no girlfriend, I dont have time to get a ok job for some extra money on the side. I dont have time to write my own music and record it. It even led to the anxiety that I had last semester. Things are shaping up now that I'm on medication, but I think it came at the write time. And reading this book is opening me up to newer things I guess I should say.
I totally am greatful.
I need to stop living as much for the future and focus on the present in order to balence out present and future. As Tal says "living for the present and future".