This is the twilight zone...

Well this week has taken and interesting turn for the better!
I'm having a hard time believing everything.
So Friday I guess my friend had told that girl that I like that I'm a good guy... she was told I had a crush on her earlier this week, really interesting outcome with this.
I really don't want to jinx myself but I saw her on the street waiting to load up all her stuff in the van for her bands show that night. She waved me down from far away and gave me a big hug and was happy to see me. She told her her situation that she was waiting to head out to the show.
I arrived with some friends at the show, pretty eager to see her but pretended like I didn't see her when I walked in. She walked up to me and greeted me warmly, told he she was glad I could come. I really didn't expect any of that from her.
She talked to me briefly with the loud band that was playing at the time, we couldnt really hear each other so not so good, but good that I was close to her.
I sat and watched the show for a little while, she came up to me out of the blue and introduced me to two of her good friends. It was pretty intense, I tryed to be a gentlemen and greet then as best I could with all the loud music. I couldnt really hear them well either way.
I was pretty shocked. She gave me alot of attention on friday so I'm asking her out tomorrow. I'm hoping to get some coffee with her or something soon.

I'm sticking to my story. I have alot of offer and I deserve this. I'm better than any of those douche bag MP&E guys.
This feels pretty good and even though I am questioning if this is the twilight zone, this feels pretty real and good to me.

I'm at the top of my game right now, and this can mean big things for me.
I'm keeping myself cool, if I can maintain this should all good down pretty smooth.

Keep it real.
-Pete

tell me whats my motivation?

I often wonder sometimes what is my true motivation in pursuing girls.
I'm sorry, this blog has now been dedicated to girls it seems so perhaps I should rename it. I'm glad I can at least vent on here and feel good about it, recently I've been annoying some people and or taking my bickering out of context.

This semester has been so good. Girls have been taking me in a much better light then I ever could have imagined and it seems that way around every corner. I love it, lots of cute faces, not enough time to consider them all. That may sound slightly bad, but I cant resist a cute face - I dont have to like a girl to know she's a cutie.

I've never really liked the cliche "hot" girls because they are fairly boring. I think about it more and more these days and I would rather be with someone who is cute, takes care of themselves and actually has something up there as opposed to just liking "everything" or "nothing".
So I pursue these cuties with the best intentions in mind. This last one that I've been having on my mind has proved herself to be the cutest one but she doesn't seem to be emotionally in the right place to even pursue any longer. I want to get to know this girl so bad, but at the same time I dont want to intrude on her life. I've done enough with putting up my end of the arguement, I dont want to look more like a stalker.

And then there is some of the cuties that I liked for a shorter period of time, but decided to give up on for whatever stupid reason. They come out of the woodwork or pass me on the street and say Hi, and its really nice to see a cute smiling face every once in a while.

I'm a sucker for a cute face. I dont know what it is. Supermodels can all go burn in hell and die. haha.

Feeling great again after just one day of going back to the gym. I hope this keeps up, meanwhile I have alot of school work I need to be doing, so hopefully I can get to that.
Peace out!

Feeling better, thankfully.

Finally feeling somewhat normal. I've been going to the chiropractor for this whole week. The adjustments have been really awesome. My back finally feels somewhat good. Still have some work that needs to be done on it though, hopefully the muscle back there will heal up soon.

There hasn't been much going on this spring break. I wanted to get more work done than I have, I've been playing alot of guitar which is great and something that I've wanted to do, but its been distracting me from the real work I should be doing. I have these two projects I should be finishing up as well as studying for the 2 finals I missed last semester so I need to get on that today.
Hopefully I can have the first project at least done by tonight, edit it tomorrow so I can get it played this week.

I've been pretty daring recently. I decided I would get in touch with this girl I think is pretty cute and I've wanted to get to know for a long time but I've never been in the right place at the right time.
I've gotten a positive response so far, but she hasn't called me so that isnt good. I guess I should be the one getting in touch with her.
She seemed to be happy to hear from me considering she doesn't really talk to me. I'm excited about this whole thing but its taking up too much brain space. I wish girls wouldnt occupy my mind like they do, but I suppose then I wouldnt like women all that much. This girl is a cutie and I hope I can get to know her. She's single, so thats a positive from last time, AND interestingly a friend of mine told me she could set me up with her - at the time though she didnt mention any names, so I passed.
The next day she told me who it was and I was kind of floored, its nice to have some spice in your life. I just like not being in limbo, I like having something to look forward to.
Maybe I should be daring and just send her a message to meet up.
I think I might just do that. But first - Gotta have some Halvah for desert which my mom so kindly sent me.

I feel like a little school girl ranting about my elementary level current events, but I would rather have them be elementary then anything else. Its bad enough I feel older than I am already.
Peace,
-Pete

Experencing good days.

I've been fortunate enough to enrich my life with clarity for the last couple of years and its been simply great. I don't think I can really explain the things that have happened that have made every week of my life feel better. I dont think I can give people credit for this at all. Its all me. I'm god.

Sounds pretty pompous at the end there... you would be too if your life turns from pure shit to greatness within a matter of a year or two.
I'm quite the happy guy.

Today was a great day considering I'm recovering from this case of the flu and Bronchitis. Just like everything you have the ability to recover. People look at it all wrong, or at least I did.

So I feel like I'm back to square one. Back in this state of limbo that happens everytime you just have no leads or possible crushes. This is one of the first time's I've felt really great while I just sit here and reflect of my day.
I understand where I stand and what I really meant when I told myself I would be single until I graduate or until after I graduate. I dont think I should be so brutal on myself. I've been looking great recently and I've really had something to show people. Shit, I'm impressing myself. I wouldnt say this at all to anyone in real life, but its hard to look good in the mirror when you look at yourself everyday, but it honestly has been really good. Going back to the gym tomorrow after a week long break. Pretty pumped about that.

Another good day to check off in my book.
Practice hard. Keep and eye out for leads.

Peace.

Frustration and Jealousy...

Hey everyone who reads this, lets pretend you actually exist.

I'm awake at 6:20am after a night of chilling in the Tv lounge with some people, had my fill in pizza and trying to battle this cold or whatever it is.
I'm sick as a dog but I cant seem to fall asleep.
I even jerked off as usually and it didnt really get me sleeping like I want. What gives?
I have a doctors appointment on monday hopefully I'll get some answers. I've had a fever for the last day or so but its gone down with the Tylenol I've been taking.
I'm basically really frustrated because this sickness has made me skip classes and interrupted my workout agenda. I guess I could use a break from working out anyways.

My jealousy comes from the whole Nicole situation. I really like this girl, she's so awesome, and I keep feeling like I have a chance in the future - which is an aweful feeling because shes been dating a guy since december.
I was recently sitting at lunch with some people and she happened to be sitting with all of them. I sat farther away just so it wouldn't look obvious I was trying to talk to her. I talked to eddy and mingled in the conversations they were all having, I was getting sick during this so I was zoning out a bit as well.
Of couse me being the admirer that I am I totally took a couple of glances at her while she was talking and eating her food. When I look at her I think of how awesome she is and it takes me back to the conversations, or at least the first few that were pretty great.
Here is the kicker - She was listening to someone talk, all the while, she was staring straight at me so when I brought my eyes up I looked straight at her and our eyes locked for a fraction of a second. She got scarred so she looked looked away real fast, but honestly this sounds bad but I've been high off of that moment for this whole week.
I really want her to just dump that immature douchebag she's dating now, and at least get to know me a little. I want to talk to her more, but I also feel like her not being single makes this an ugly situation - I will be friendly but I just dont have the motivation. At least I can enjoy the little things.

On a related note: I really want someone to cuddle with. This is something I've been missing out on for oh so many years and I need to make up for the time that I've lost same thing goes for literature.

Have a good weekend folks.
-Pete